i plead no contest to the fact that once upon a time i was on the twilight bandwagon. yes i know you should shoot me. though i was on it long before the adorable robert pattison and awkward kristen stewart were aboard the vampire train. i've always been into vampiric culture. i've got a thing for sexy and sultry, and i once had a boy toy who donned fangs and now i can't shake it i suppose. moving along, i read the books and i fell in love, with edward. like every other girl. i was away at college at this time. much further away from my current boy than i would've liked but we had just gotten together and while i loved him. he had several months on me love wise. he loved me first. i was eighteen away at college and could barely figure out whether it was love or some powerful infatuation. i was very much under the impression that i didn't fall in love. so i admit i found edward fun. i'm not sure when i got off the bandwagon. i have to assume it was when the story got weird. [spoilers ahead maybe] perhaps when edward demanded bella to stay away from jacob or when he was just too good to be true. i do know that i realized i had my own love though. he was no edward, but i've always been perfectly okay with that. i still love him. he's sweet, and kind and caring and thats what matters. he could stand to be a bit more romantic and not call it "mushy" but thats okay too. he gets a boy pass. i apologize if i keep straying to the topic of love i'm not sure why its on my mind so much lately. it is almost scary.